Matt doesn’t want me to get a second job, but I really, really want to.
Right now, I get off work at 3:30 PM, and I have to wait for him to pick me up from work (can't take public transportation - the system in LA is super horrible, and the shortest commute is 2 hours anyway, and we can't move until our lease is up in 5 months). Usually he picks me up about 5 - 5:15.
I keep thinking, if I got a second job, maybe 20 hours a week, he could just pick me up later. And the $400-500 extra could go towards saving for a second car, paying my student loans, and me getting my own spending money. I really miss having my own money. Having to justify every expense, not being able to buy a latte or lunch when I want to... It sucks. It makes me really angry.
But he doesn't want me to get a second job. Because then I'll be tired. Well I'm tired anyway when we get home at 6:30, so I don't see how getting home at 9:30 after working a 4-5 hour shift will be THAT much worse!
I don’t know what to do, but I’m tired of waiting, bored, for nearly two hours, just so he can pick me up. And I’d love to be able to save for my own car. I’d really like to have money in my wallet, instead of being hungry, unable to buy food because dear husband didn’t feel like he needed to give me any spending money.
I hate this dependency. I’m angry, and frustrated. I keep thinking I’d be better off single.
To be honest, what I would really rather do is split the bills 50/50. Cuz you know what? I’d have $1000 spending money each month. (Not that I’d spend it all. I really would like my own car.) If we did that, though, Matt’s salary would barely be able to cover his portion of the bills.
Maybe if I gave him part of my paycheck, it would work. Like an allowance.
Yeah he wouldn’t go for that either.
But this…this is just not working at all.