Thursday Morning

This morning, the commute to work was blocked horrifically.  Why?  Because there is currently a huge Occupy LA protest going on right outside my building.  Now I understand being angry about the economy.  I, too, was told that I could major in whatever I wanted, get whatever job I wanted, at a starting salary of 40K a year.  That didn’t exactly happen.  But seriously – spending taxpayer money on police officers and traffic control is not good.  Think of all the waste coming from this protest – and exactly what good is going to come of it??  Pray, tell me, what they hope to achieve. 

 

 

 

33 days out

I have not written in nearly two weeks.  I have half finished posts in my “drafts” folder, but somehow, I haven’t seemed to find time to complete them. 

 

The past 10 days have been a whirlwind of activity.  Wedding projects are being completed; we went through a major software update at work, so that was moderately stressful.  There’s a new position opening at work, a permanent position, and my chances are about 50/50.  I’m not sure I want the job.  It’s highly stressful, with absolutely no downtime.  The others in the same job regularly skip lunches and breaks to complete half of their workload.  I’m not sure that I could successfully work in that job.

 

I also have cold feet.  I have it really bad.  The kind where you start dreaming about your ex’s, where you have panic attacks while trying on your veil, where even thinking about the vows give you hot flashes.  I never thought I would be the person to get cold feet.  I thought I would be nonchalant and casual.  But it’s the standinguptherebeforehundredsofpeopleandohmygoodnesswhatiftheyHATEit??? 

 

I seriously cannot wait until this ends. 

 

 

Reflections, Six Weeks Out

Six weeks to go.  It feels like a really long time, but I’m trying not to trick myself and let myself procrastinate.  There are a lot of things to finish for the wedding.  My dress from China came (2 ½ weeks early!  Thank you Jesus!), but the bodice is a little loose, and I need to see if adding padding plus tightening the corset will fix the problem, or if I have to pay for alterations (which tend to be expensive).  I need to do some minor work with the appliqués, plus add a bustle. 

 

My veil still needs to be finished.  The problem is, I’m not sure where I’m going with it.  Très difficult.  I haven’t even begun to work on the card box, the bunting is halfway done, the aisle décor needs another 6 things, and the butterflies have to get finished.  Plus I want to finish the jewelry for the girls, and their bridesmaid bags.  I also need to make food labels for the reception, and the programs… well, they won’t get done until the week before anyway.  Oh, and I need more cupcake stands, and I realized we need tablecloths for the food tables, so we need to go thrift store shopping…

 

This.  Never.  Ends. 

 

 

Stories to Think About

This is a really great blog about being pre-engaged. 

 

http://apracticalwedding.com/2011/10/mortification-an-the-pre-engaged-state/

 

 

This is one of the best Modern Love’s I’ve read.  I especially like this part:

 

“But my husband has seen me at my worst, at my most vile. And he has seen me at my best. He knows the things I don’t tell anyone, and the lies that I tell everyone but him. I have made sacrifices for him and been angry about it. Sometimes his flaws are so egregious, so blatant, they are all I see. And sometimes his kindness is so stunning that I am humbled. And that’s love. Big, epic, fairy-tale love. The kind of love people write about. The kind of love that could inspire a poem.”

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/10/30/fashion/when-the-words-dont-fit-modern-love.html?_r=1&ref=fashion

 

 

The Big 5-0

The wedding is 7 weeks away, and I am freaking out.  Since I stopped dancing, I’ve put on about 30 pounds.  Work is extremely stressful, and what do I do when I’m stressed?  Eat.  Eat and eat and eat and eat and eat.  It’s starting to show in my chin.

 

I’m thinking about doing a diet for the next 7 weeks, but I half-think I won’t stick to it.  If I cut out processed carbs, eating veggies and protein for 7 weeks, I think that will let me drop a few.  I thought about doing the 30 day shred, but maybe I should just walk?  So confusing.  Also, I’m retaining water in my feet, so I’m going to take some diuretics for that, and it should help. 

 

Of course, I’ll allow processed carbs for Thanksgiving and the bridal shower.  Both of which are coming up super fast.

 

I can’t believe in 50 days I will be a bride.  Oh.  My.  Goodness. 

 

Today is my mom’s 49^th birthday!  Happy Birthday Mom!!

The Wedding Will Start on Time!

You heard me.  J  December 17, 2011 at 1PM sharp, the 6 minute slideshow will start.  So you should be on time.  ALL of you.

 

2-Bite Cinnamon Roll, 2-Bite Caramel scone, Macaroon

(For the record, the cinnamon roll was 4 bites, and the scone was 6.)

 

Whenever we get a new vendor at work, they bring goodies.  Yay! 

Weekend Happenings

No pictures from the weekend – sorry.  On Friday we saw Shanna’s burlesque troupe with their Halloween show.  It was seriously amazing.  I enjoyed it so very much!  The songs were great, the dancing was fantastic, and the costumes were phenomenal.  They won’t have another show until July 2012, but you can always see if they are doing small performances.  Their website is www.voluptuousentertainment.com.  

 

On Saturday, Matt and I were apartment hunting.  We found one we like, but we’ll see what happens.  My parents went to the Cuff’s house for dinner, so that was fun.

 

After church on Sunday, Matt and I went to my family get together in Norco, and then got fabric for our Halloween costumes.  We are the fairy king and queen from A Midsummer Night’s Dream. 

 

Today I have to finish mailing the invitations... Not as many people were at church as I had hoped, so we have to mail them today.